Tuesday, 13 June 2017

A History of Sexual Preference -- BY ROBIN BECKER


We are walking our very public attraction 
through eighteenth-century Philadelphia. 
I am simultaneously butch girlfriend 
and suburban child on a school trip, 
Independence Hall, 1775, home 
to the Second Continental Congress. 
Although she is wearing her leather jacket, 
although we have made love for the first time 
in a hotel room on Rittenhouse Square, 
I am preparing my teenage escape from Philadelphia, 
from Elfreth’s Alley, the oldest continuously occupied 
residential street in the nation, 
from Carpenters’ Hall, from Congress Hall, 
from Graff House where the young Thomas 
Jefferson lived, summer of 1776. In my starched shirt 
and waistcoat, in my leggings and buckled shoes, 
in postmodern drag, as a young eighteenth-century statesman, 
I am seventeen and tired of fighting for freedom 
and the rights of men. I am already dreaming of Boston— 
city of women, demonstrations, and revolution 
on a grand and personal scale. 

                                                       Then the maître d’ 
is pulling out our chairs for brunch, we have the 
surprised look of people who have been kissing 
and now find themselves dressed and dining 
in a Locust Street townhouse turned café, 
who do not know one another very well, who continue 
with optimism to pursue relationship. Eternity 
may simply be our mortal default mechanism 
set on hope despite all evidence. In this mood, 
I roll up my shirtsleeves and she touches my elbow. 
I refuse the seedy view from the hotel window. 
I picture instead their silver inkstands, 
the hoopskirt factory on Arch Street, 
the Wireworks, their eighteenth-century herb gardens, 
their nineteenth-century row houses restored 
with period door knockers. 
Step outside. 
We have been deeded the largest landscaped space 
within a city anywhere in the world. In Fairmount Park, 
on horseback, among the ancient ginkgoes, oaks, persimmons, 
and magnolias, we are seventeen and imperishable, cutting classes 
May of our senior year. And I am happy as the young 
Tom Jefferson, unbuttoning my collar, imagining his power, 
considering my healthy body, how I might use it in the service 
of the country of my pleasure.